Friday, May 20, 2005

God is Trustworthy!!

The doubts that I have been having are not because I do not think God is trustworthy. I think it is more about not trusting myself. And the good news is that I don't have to trust myself. I have God on my side and He is taking care of me and my family. I don't have to be good enough or smart enough or anything else. I have felt a peace come over me and do not fear the unknown as much. I will need to remind myself who my trust is in. But thank goodness I don't have to do it on my own! When we put our trust in God and allow Him to be #1 in our lives things are so much easier. That does not mean that I will not have any struggles, but the struggle I will have will be easier to handle with God.

Wednesday, May 18, 2005

How Much Do I Trust God?

I am supposed to be cooking something for potluck at church right now, but I keep putting off posting and I hate not keeping up with it. I will figure something out for dinner, but for now I have some thoughts that I will try to keep short.

God is working really hard in the lives of myself and my husband right now. We have grown so much in our spiritual ideas over the past couple of years. I don't take as much study time as I should, but I really enjoy discussing things with Mike and we seem to always support each others ideas. I am so blessed to have a Christian husband who is really passionate for Christ and for reaching lost souls.

The question is now, how much do I trust God? With some of our new understanding of scripture we can't ignore the real reason we serve God. That is to reach lost souls and share Christ with them. We have to think outside the box and reach those that our churches are not reaching right now. This can be really scary when I have become so comfortable in my life and my safe place at church. I don't have to be with people that make me uncomfortable or are different from me. But that is what God has been telling us we must do.

There are alot of other things that go along with that. We are praying that God use us in our ministry to do this. We are praying that God shows us his plan for us and how we should minister. We are praying that God show us where we need to minister. I do not do well when I can't see the future and make plans accordingly. I am getting better at trusting that God will provide for me and my family, but it is a challenge. I want to get better at this, and am telling God every day that I am working on it.